From: Laura Hillman, 17 November 2011
Hi I have written to the website a few times, most of you know I suffer from mental health distress, on one of my letters i said i had been sent to horrid place miles away from an wasnt pleasant to be there at all as didnt meet there criteria the people were violent agressive had drink an drugs problems or been in prison as they were deemed to ill to their sentence in prison related to there severe illness, I dont fit into those criteria as i dont drink alchol im tee total, never touched illiecit an never smoked drugs an neither am i viloent
The staff at that hospital can be quite vile to you there. I just want see how many of you would feel if you [experienced things like this]:
To.have your mobile phone taken away from you or restricted use an supervised calls no cameras allowed to see pictures of you loved ones;
cant go out when you want to may have wait days or months to be able to go out then have 2 staff escorting you then you cant go where you liked go staff are leading.
not being allowed to attend family an close friends funerals not allowed take aways.
restricted times for tea an cofee only allowed 3 x a day
no sweet treats unless its the weekend an then it is rationed an only allowed 2 have one bar of chocalate or packet of crisps. no puddings at meal times at all, meals are awful too.
not allowed to have perfume or deodrants on your person
for people that smoke they are restricted to fags breakfast, lunch, tea an night.
. you have to be supervised ou in the ward garden if you dont smoke an sometimes dont get out for days or a week.
no fizzy drinks are allowed on site,so if you fancy a coke a cola you wont get it unless its a special outing an disposed once back to the ward.
. once people have leave to go out granted by the doctor you can go out on trips out its usualy to the shops or coffee shop, you dont get to got the cinema theatre, walks (although as I left things were improving on that front).
. you were allowed tvs an radios but they could be removed out of punishement if you didnt obey commands.
. you were dicted what you could an couldnt wear.
you werent allowed to keep your money on you an staff would deter how much you could take out to spend quite often it would be no more than a fiver or usualy £2.00 for a drink.
. you were allowed to cook once a week an heavly supervised cause of the risk of fights, attacks
I m not that much better now i left in 2009 we at the end of 2011 an i feel worse now then before i was sent there it affected me badly an have nightmares that i will end up back there, I was lucky to get out of there just through pure luc, oherwise i would still be there. but what ive got too remember is i did get out an many people are still there being treated in the same horid manor.
i have now lost my house for good it was held open for me for a long time, the landlord was very kind an undersanding over mental well being but he couldnt wait for the money to come in to help me pay for it, so that wonderful place i was supposed to be in has ginen me more grief.
I also feel vey sad how my father is now i find it very distessing from spending so long away from home against my wishes an see he is no longer my dad it breaks my heart.
I would like to ask the villagers how they would feel if they had all these restrictions placed on them, im thinking many of you wouldnt like it some of you may have already expeirenced it.
So another question im going to ask that some people wont like - is it realy too much trouble to travel ten minutes up the road to the new surgery, where you can possibly have more treatment done witout having to travel to weston or bristol an people make transport there. I dont like like travling to weston or bristol for treatment an would rather go 10 minutes at the road.
I still think it would be good for a day centre to be open for local villagers, for people suffering from mental distress. Nothing ever came about that an i still think the new surgery plans could possibly include this.
Also I would like to thank many of the villagers who have been tremendous support an not to much knowledge ever judged me:
Mrs Pauline Wathen, who wrote to me many times when i was away .. Rosemarie Hodges who bounces up to me with a massive hug when she sees me! Mrs Collins who has very kindly wrote a letter for me as well as the other teachers, Amors Stores, David an Fiona Jewel who i know no longer live in the village, Dr Portas has been fantastic support along with the receptionists, My neighbours Caroline Nee Brown, Hayley at the back of me, mike an pam house, an many other villagers have been extremly supportive.
Now im to go onto my close best friends all who onced lived in wrington an went o school there Janita Hadley Nee Snook, Michelle Orchard nee Frapell, Alison Langman nee thorn, An Kirsty Clements nee smith. I actualy met Kirsty at college when i was 16yrs old, Another name I would like to mention who has been very supportive an have had a rough time themselves I met her while doing Rainbows in Wrington about 15 yrs ago - we were both volunteers an have stayed friends ever since, and that is Kathryn Savage from Congresbury, also thanks to Sue Evans an the late Jenny Smythe.